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OK, you are in control, now what?

29 Jun

I gave up the fight. I stopped trying to control the outcome. I left it up to God and stepped out in Faith when He told me too. I ceased fighting anyone or anything. Temporarily.

I don’t know why its temporary. As soon as I did, I got a new career and a job. The pieces fell together to allow a fresh start. I felt relaxed and happy. As soon as I let go, I got offered an interview and a medical license in Idaho. Things seemed to be ok—whether they went as I wanted them or not. Slowly, however, I have begun to think that I need to control things. I need to fix the chaos and do some tidying up my life. I need predictability and a plan. I need direction and need to determine that direction.

I have forced the issue and been discouraged when things get shaky. I worry about relationships, finances, and reputation. Instead of accepting things as they are, I have drifted back into thinking, “I could do that better, wonder why they don’t ask me how to run their business.” I have answers to questions never asked. I have solutions to problems that don’t exist. I feel unnerved and nervous. I react by trying to tidy up. (that’s just a softer way of saying I am trying to control things.)

I will let go again. I will remember how miserable I was when I fought to control everything. I will let things unfold as they are supposed to and not, necessarily, how I want them to be. I will live into the moment instead of regretting the past and worrying about the future. I will live. Temporarily.

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Posted by on June 29, 2014 in life

 

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One response to “OK, you are in control, now what?

  1. Susan Irene Fox

    June 29, 2014 at 1:01 pm

    Letting go is oh, so difficult. If we want to take this ride with God, we must remember, He’s in the driver’s seat. Trying to wrench the steering wheel from His hands only ensures an accident. Reach for the radio instead of the wheel. It will make the ride so much more peaceful. 🙂

     

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